I remember what my very awesome friend Danielle had on her journalism shirt. It goes somewhat like this.

“I always look forward to writing not just because I could EXPRESS but because I know I could INSPIRE someone.” 

Not exact, but you get the point. Which is why I am writing this down here in facebook (first posted this on facebook just minutes ago.) where the people I hope to read this could read this. So, here it goes. 

*Praise is still thinking how to start*I started to know the true meaning of ‘learning’ for the past year. I’ve been able to experience, do, feel and discover a lot of stuff which I believe God used to teach me, and indeed, He did teach me and He did it very well. Although, some of them I already knew, but I figured out I really didn’t know them. 

One of the stuff God taught me is that, *dramatic pose*—  God loves me. God loves me in so many ways and in so many levels. I am alive. I am born with a complete body; with a complete family; with a loving and forgiving father and a responsible and wise  mother; with a very giving  brother and a sister to laugh with before going to sleep. I have shelter, clothes and food more than enough of what I am suppose to have. I am given great education and amazing friends. And as I was typing that, I was overwhelmed and still am. It had just been days ago when I heard from my friends in my previous school. It was great talking to some of them and I could clearly remember our happy days like it was a just minute ago. Sadly, it was not just a minute ago. It had been three years already and it was not that ‘happy’ anymore. Adding a number to the cencus is not really ‘good stuff’ to hear. (I hope you got that sentence.) Honestly, some part of me just— cracked, and it ain’t a nice feeling. I could tell you that. I’m not gonna detail how creepy it felt, but for a couple of nights, I kept thinking and thinking about it. After those nights of thinking, I asked myself; Why didn’t I  become like them?  Why? I mean, I’d been with them for a great amount of time, hadn’t I? But, why? Then, a lot of other questions started to flash fastly in my mind. Why am I this and that;  Why am I given this and that;  Why is my whoever this and that instead of being this and that like the others. Looking at myself in the mirror, I’m a big fat (Oh wait! I’m not fat.) nothing. Well, maybe I’m something. Let’s see… I’m 50% bones, 45% flesh and 5% fats. Wow. That even all certainly does not make me worthy of all of these wonderfulness beyond meassure God is showering upon me. But, you know what the good thing is? Despite being just bones, flesh and some fats, He has been giving me grace. And you know what else? He didn’t just leave me that way. He turned me into something more. There was Jesus in me. [And, let me tell you how it felt like. It was like, you’ve been in the comfort room falling in line for your turn in a cubicle for such a long time. You’ve been sweating, holding your breath because it’s stinky, holding ‘it’ in with all the forces you could excert then, you’re finally done and you can go out. And, you inhale the fresh air of the outside. (What a metaphor! That was unusual.) And you’re finally free.]

Because I am a girl of questions, I still continued to ask, why?  Then, the answer I’ve ‘always known’ pops in. Because He loves me. Then, I ask again, why?  Then again, the other answer I’ve ‘always known’ pops in, too. Because He simply does and there’s nothing I could do about it. Do you know what else? He loves you too because He simply does and there’s nothing you could do about it. He has this road where both of you could walk. It gets bumpy on some parts. Likereally really really bumpy you wanna get off the road. But, hey! That doesn’t mean He doesn’t love you. That’s why He’s walking with you in the first place. 

*Why, I hope that made sense. I hope you got something from there. Having problems with the sequencing/arranging of thoughts and freedom of usage of words. Wush! OH YEAH! Someday, somehow, I’ll share the very, untimately awesome, most treasured (so far) thing I learned. That won’t be anytime soon. Anyway, thank you! 

¡A Dios sea la gloria! <— How I hope the grammar is right. (To God be the glory!) 

Now I’m loving my dashboard! <3

HELLO SHWEEPS!~ Now, I will write again about my secretly awesome life. 
What has been going on with my life… Hmmm….

I am enrolled! Yey! Guess what my section is… IT’S NEON! Again. Pffft~ (I wanted Nitrogen so the pattern will be NeNNeN) If you want to see who my classmates are, click here. :D I’m happy with my section. Almost all of my friends are in there. I believe it will be a great year for me. Partly no for some reason I do not want to talk about here. I also got my books. And, guess what? I have another thick book! And guess what it is. IT’S CALCULUS! <3 Don’t you just love my school curriculum? I know I don’t. :’) But, let’s face it. I know it’ll give me great advantage in my future years of learning.

Off to the next story of my life. I’m giving you an update of my plans for college. If I qualify for the said campus and for the said degree… 

UP Diliman

• BS Architecture
• BA Broadcast Communication/ BA European Languages (this part is where I’ve been going crazy with)

UP Manila

• BA Organizational Communication
• BA Behavioral Sciences  

And, if I don’t qualify for any of those UP campuses, I plan to request for star scholarship in La Salle or whatever scholarship you call it in Ateneo. Which is kinda blurry. But nothing is blurry with the Lord. 
If I still don’t, I don’t know now. But I am hoping for the best and praying to God every night to grant the desire of my heart to qualify for UP Diliman. Pray for me too, please. And for all of us who will be taking the exams. Hoping for a great future. 

Classes will be on June 4. Yey! I am actually excited for my last year in High School. Know why? Simply because it is my last year in the campus. :D I will enjoy it to the FULLEST. And, 2 more stuff why I’m excited for it is because…

1. I’m part of the Himig Scientia! 
2. Advance Spanish class in on! (hoping) 

So yeah. I guess this is enough public writing for the week. 

Oh wait! I almost forgot. This is my friend, Danielle’s, new site. Click HERE and I mean it, you have to click HERE to visit her site. :D She is an amazing writer! She used to update her tumblr but she switched to another host. 

Adios.  

No, I will not do it. I’m tired of predicting other people’s feelings when I tried enough times already to reach them.

So here I am again. With the same stuff going on. Going on? Not really. Different stuff. Same me. So here they are. 

I spent the first two weeks of my summer doing nothing. Well, it was all music and writing and music and writing.
Third week, I went to Baguio. And guess what? I CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN!  Which is a great thing. Why? ‘Cause it’s part of my Summer-To-Do list. Honestly, what I had in mind was climb with this person if we get to Baguio on the same date. But no. So yeah. It’s sad at the same time. That person is all I could think of while climbing that mountain. Especially when I made it on the top of it. Gush.
On the 4th week, I taught in Vacation Bible School- Camp The Great Outdoors. It was  a really really really great thing for the church’s children ministry. After that, I offered free flute lessons every Sunday after Sunday School. So yeah. The ministry is going really great. And I am greatly blessed. The best VBS I’ve taught in so far. I’m already teaching for 3 years straight. To God be the glory.
So here’s the thing. The plan was to have review classes for the whole month of May. BUT! My mom then told me that it would be better if I’d have review classes on June-July so the lesson’ll be fresh. I’m talking about Review classes for the upcoming UPCAT and other college entrance exams, btw. I agree to that. 
The UPCAT will be on August 4 and 5. So these are my choices.
Course

1.    First choice: Architecture or Civil Engineering (Building shootness)
2.    Second choice: Communication Arts (Blah blah. Anything that has to do with journalism, writing, talking and shoot.) 

UP Campus

1.    First choice: UP Diliman
2.    Second choice: UP Manila 

I am trying to review on my own these past few days with those MSA books for now. It’s kinda hard. All I’m doing it taking these “almost real” tests. It would be better if I get to re-study ‘em first. I’m really nervous. I mean, the only school I could think of is UP. I’m getting chills. Oh, God. Please. UP! Please, God. Help me.  

Why do I feel like my friends are avoiding me? O.o